Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in gollybype's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, February 25th, 2009
8:35 pm	omgee.....nyahakhak yesterday i teared up... this friend of mine ... she treat me as her best friend before... we really have a lot of common though.. but we also have differences like she brags a lot and really a show-off.. well she really has the right to brag coz her family is rich... i also dislike her sometimes coz everytime she has a new friend.. she'll just leave me alone and or sometimes i'm trying to listen to their conversation but i'm still out of place... so there was a time that I ignored her... and she needed the help of her aunt (not so old)... her aunt asked me if i had a fight with her or anything... then she was just looking at me... i told her aunt that i have no issue with her... then i faked a smile at her.... i sounds so phony i know..lol... so then we got closer again..play together...but same issue occurred... ok i'll admit..i was 14 that time and she was 10 years old... but i have baby face though hahah... so we looks like we're at the same age.... i was kinda immature that time that i even buy my friends..just the little ones..hahah.. they were at 5-8 of age... i have friends at school though... but i barely invite them to my house.... i told myself that i will forget them... but now that i'm far away from them.. i kinda missed my days playing pranks with them.. i am really a prankster...not really obvious coz i tend to have like an innocent face..lol.. so yesterday i was looking at the pictures of my friend's account.... she looks happy...enjoying her sophomore year.. then i kept laughing because she put funny descriptions on the pictures... then i was missing her.... i teared up...i realized that she was really my friend.. i just didn't noticed coz i was so immature... i have realized that she's only a child and i was a pre-teen... we even made a promise before ... that we're going to  be a partner in a business... a swimming pool business in my country... we made that promise during her birthday coz we celebrated her birthday in some nice swimming pool party.. i really told her that if i'll come back home.. we'll plan and build it there... i actually envy her... we were both learning how to swim that time and i can really swim better than her.. (when i say i can swim it means like a dog swim..lol..not really like swim) so my last day in my country we had a pool party.. then i just noticed that she can swim already (like the regular swim) but i still can't ..i was even almost drowned coz my brother pushed me... they were playing water sport but i can't play with the other youth coz i can't swim... she can also play instruments like drum, bass, guitar, and even keyboard.. she was quite amazing.... unlike me i can only play a triangle... it's not even an instrument.... also before..we were both a tambourine dancer in our church and i can really dance better than her... but now she can really dance well and even know how to break-dance..cool huh?... yes i was insecure and i can even say until now... i felt bad when i and my family were leaving the country... her grandparents were taking us to the airport and so is she.. her grandparents were really close to my mom...but i didn't really ride there.. i chose to go with my cousin and my nephews and niece.. so when we arrived at the airport...she was there outside looking at me... but i pretended that i didn't see her.... i actually don't know how to say goodbye... i dunno how to approach her and all those stuffs.... then she went back to the car..... she's probably upset at me... when i was greeting her and asked how is she through our friendster account..she replied late.. but then again after a while we were back to normal... and the worst that i did was...i greeted her late on her birthday..it was like a month after.... and i kept telling her sorry and she said it's ok but i knew she got upset.. i actually made it on purpose... and you know what she did to me.... she did the same thing...it was my birthday right and she greeted me after a few days... and she was like..."oh it's your birthday....i'm sorry i forgot i was kinda busy" i was laughing while reading it...coz i know she did it on purpose.. i told her it's ok...nowadays..i barely chat her...coz i really have nothing to say... and i'm kinda embarrass...and i've noticed from her profile that i wasn't on her top friends anymore... but she's still on my top friends though... i was kinda disappointed but what should i do... i'm far away from her and she met new people.. she deserves to be happy though... i wish her goodluck... I hope i'll have a chance to visit my country sooner.... thats it for now... i think..it's too long already...lol..;p Current Mood: calm Current Music: ready set go by tokio hotel (Comment on this)
Monday, February 23rd, 2009
7:02 pm	so it's been two weeks.... some of my days were pretty rough... but mostly it's crazy though.... and oh...my friend Kat is here in LJ... she's a pretty girl....and one of my closest friend at school.. she's also very nice and and very bright!~ she always let me copy in homeworks... I'm kinda like abusing here kindness..lol.. so anyways..i went to FDU today for a tour... it was so cold that i got cold sore... everyone was staring at me... i thought i was so pretty..lol... but when i went to the lavatory... i saw my lips...red as heck!~ and it's all over my mouth... actually...FDU is a nice school..but i don't think i'm gonna go there coz I'm facing a financial crisis...but i'm still hoping to attend there and hopefully my financial package will cover everything!~ i'm currently messing around with my friends right now through net.. there's a 2 people who once a lover.. they are so sweet and they are having a debate right now.. and i was like meddling there coz it's just the three of us..it was kinda funny though.... as the same time awkward as heck.. i'm the referree but i'm kinda bias because i'm favoring on rain... beth was like..ok...giving more questions and all those stuffs.. if you and your ex met or even have a debate.? u think u are imagining your past or anything sweetness you did..?? their story is cute as heck..lol... i hope they'll be together again...but beth has a boyfriend right now and he's kinda my friend too... their story is kinda like movie... with matching antagonists...(friends)...though it's not obvious but i've noticed it.. and so on...i think this is for now... i'm really happy today hope all of you too!~ Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: kailangan kita (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 1st, 2009
6:21 pm	wooohhh Sunday... I and my dad went to church today... while he's driving he's telling me personal stuffs... then he also told me that I made him cry yesterday... i asked him why... he told me that he felt lonesome when I was smiling at him coz I peeked at his room... i felt like my heart has been poked... i teared up a little bit... but I didn't let him see me tearing up.. i stared at him while he's driving... even though i just can see his side view... it really seems that he's crying too... I suddenly felt guilty about the things i did to him... like when i yelled at him... but the thing is he understand me... he's been a wonderful dad to me... even though he asks a lot of questions and repeat his stories... Instead of babbling things that I know it would just hurt him.. I'll try not to talk back and listen to him... I think it's time for me to grow up ... thinking all the sacrifices he had done to his family... I don't think he's perfect at all... and there's no and will be a perfect father in this world... but i think he's great.... Current Mood: happy Current Music: still believe in love- Jenny Hyun (Comment on this)
Friday, January 30th, 2009
10:39 pm	whatever..   I'm still depressed.... I cried a little bit... I'm so freakin hurt because everything i see seems so wrong... but at this moment I kinda feel happy... Hanzo invited me to the new famesociety and it was  great... I forgot I was sad... My old friends welcomed me back... Then, I chat a little bit with them... And oh...i got a new online friend here... his name is Jeff...he's 18... i think he's a senior too ... he's a Dominican... and he looks like IDK boy... he thought I was cool which I'm not haha... Btw, i took a test in pre-calc and English... my pre-calc test was easy... in English it was a benchmark an essay like you have to choose a character from the two books we read... i chose Holden from catcher in the rye... i know my essay wasn't proficient coz my ending sucks...i got no time to proof-read it too... i hope i still can get an average score... i wanna watch tv ..i missed the 1st episode of Bichunmu... and oh tomorrow i'll be going to Berkeley... I'm not really interested in that school though... gotta go now.... Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: lost by katy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 29th, 2009
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10:02 pm	i hate this day...it's boring...and did you know that I snub that caitlin b*^c%... my mom...she's depressing me... she doesn't likes me anymore coz i'm not smart.. she's with her favorite daughter who has the worst attitude ever but she loves her..who am i to her? i just cried coz i wanna watch a show but they switch to a non-sense... most of the times she really makes me depress... and oh today..i applied for kean...it was horrible...lol..well i'm not expecting at all... i couldn't care less if i'll get accepted or not... so anyway... that's all for now... today seems to be a depressing day for everyone I know... I'm pissed off too... and anyways..i need to review for our exam tomorrow in pre-calc Current Mood: depressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)